the moment i realized how valuable my energy is, was the same moment i started investing in myself. self care is the best care. and i doubled down. all i ever needed was mySELF. faith in mySELF, belief in mySELF, kindness to mySELF and know my worth to mySELF.
i am what is known as a HSP(highly sensitive person, a highly sensitive person (HSP) is someone who is thought to have an increased or deeper central nervous system sensitivity to physical, emotional, or social stimuli. Some refer to this as having sensory processing sensitivity, or SPS for short).
high sensitivity is a personality trait that involves increased responsiveness to both positive and negative influences. social stress is perceived as more taxing to most people than other types of stress. this kind of stress can be particularly difficult for someone who can perceive many different ways that things could go wrong in a conflict, for example, or can perceive hostility or tension where others may not notice it. so in short it’s a curse and a blessing. but i go with the blessing and turn that into my super power. so i changed HSP to mean HEIGHTENED SUPER POWER. the acronym hasn’t been approved yet, so don’t quote me.
i have always been sensitive and also have been told by family, when i was younger that, you guessed it. “you’re too sensitive”. in my younger years it wasn’t hard at all to get me going. ask my brother. he was the epitome of what it is to have a BIG BROTHER. he took all his frustration out on me verbally but when he was hurt, i never turned my back on him. now if that’s not the definition of BROTHERLY LOVE, i don’t know what is. the proverbial joke was always on ME.
so how did i become to be a part of a collective of HSP superhero’s. you guessed it again.
having gone through some darkness made me perceptive. i had a glimpse at a very young age of what the world was really like and who i did not want to be. i knew then, that what happened to me would never happen to anyone i bring into this 🌍 earth.. NAHHHH… not on my watch, NEVAAAA..
The Creator and The Divine Universe had bigger plans for me and instilled in me a resilience you can only dream of. the darker the adversary the stronger i got. but underneath the armor i donned i remained humble and still. as i got older i started to see how i changed around certain people. like some friends made me feel less than or others i would have immense energy around. i was not aware that some were only around to steal my energy, so i wouldn’t feel my self. the others added and or matched my energy. so it intensified. i was always magnetically drawn to my energy matchers. their vibe was my vibe. their flow was my flow.
CHILD HOOD TRAUMA.
as i evolved i realized who was worth my energy. i realized my energy is worth it’s weight in gold. my energy is my SUPER POWER. and it should always be treated as such.
beware of the energy vamps
they are the ones that know the true value of your energy and will suck you dry. just being around them will leave you feeling worthless and depressed. the only way to get a refund on that energy is to cut the cord that attaches you. forgive them…i know, here i go again with that forgiveness bs again. it works gosh darn it, forgive yourself. and love them from afar. you can’t save everyone unfortunately. but you can make a choice to save yourself. just like they had a choice to not be a ENERGY VAMP. but tomato, tomatoe. that’s neither here nor there.
in this world, on this earth we all have a CHOICE. you have to treat your energy like currency. it holds all that is your essence. it holds all your POWER. not everyone is deserving to be in your energy when they don’t appreciate its value. it’s like giving your energy out at a discounted price. your energy is PRICELESS.
i treat my energy like it’s a BASQUIAT one of ones (for those who don’t know who Jean-Michel Basquiat is…his paintings go for over 8million, JayZ has an original in his kitchen, where his kids eat cheerios) i have to sus you out before you can even get an ounce of my energy. i know what my energy is worth and most can’t even afford a milliliter of it.
DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOUR ENERGY IS WORTH??
if i were you i would start doing the math. you may need to cut some attachment cords and get your energy refunds A$AP ROCKY.
today started like any normal day. i was awoken by a 😴 DREAM 💭 with a certain someone trying to wake me up. and they were successful. but i was tired so went back to sleep. i have been recently letting go of chemicals in my body that no longer serve me. and i am out of my vitamins so it has been a struggle but i have maintained my word to The Creator and i know he sees my little victories. i have been trying to drink tea more but it’s a struggle cause i crave ☕️ ESPRESSO. and the local wawa is 4 blocks away. so i get my steps in, get some ☀️ SUN🌞 , and my caffeine, and i listen to music so it’s soothing.
so it’s the beginning of the month, which means rent is due and paid and i’m tapped out. budget is done. and i spent extra money at the beach 🏖, but you only live ONCE and my tan is the flex. i am pretty disciplined with my money. my mom is my BANK. she holds all my funds. so if i call her she knows i overspent somewhere. so i am literally not doing that.
so i get cute for my walk, i’m literally wearing yeezy’s and planning on handing the cashier all change for a $4 latte. the irony i know. but there is no shame in my game.
a bitch, needs her ESPRESSO!!
so before i leave home, i always pray 🙏 and i meditate and individually pray to my angels for whatever my needs are. each ANGEL gets their own individual prayer. even though i forget to ask for signs as confirmation and still receive them.
i did not this TIME. before i leave i remind a specific 👼 ANGEL 😇 to give me inspiration on an idea for a blog post today. i picked up a shift at work for a re up of funds so reminded them that i had a 2 hour window. (hey, you need to be specific and with the purest of intentions.) MY ANGELS know my heart so they never disappoint.
be so as i am walking and listening to music. i am thinking to myself… I PRAY I HAVE ENOUGH… but something in my head told ME…
YOU WILL HAVE EXACTLY ENOUGH!!
so i proceeded on my walk. when i get there i order my coffee on the screeen and i get line with my ticket to pay. no one is behind me and i keep checking cause me and my change will be awhile. then, this man that looked like he didn’t belong where i was, like he looked out of place. if that makes sense. i told him to go in front of me cause my transaction may or may not cause him to lose his patience. he laughed. but then he turned around and gave me money to buy my coffee. i normally wouldn’t EVER let a stranger buy me anything. but a gurrrr needs her ESPRESSO. and it was obvious he just wanted to do that for me. i told him “God Bless You” and “Thank You” and that he was an angel cause i was literally going to use change.
i felt blessed and grateful and overwhelmed with emotion on my walk home. cause i knew that what just happened was divinely orchestrated. and when i walk into my apartment filled with GRATITUDE AND APPRECIATION. i take in a deep breath and i am overwhelmed by the strongest scent of roses. that was my confirmation.
My Angels see my progress and my growth and even the smallest victories need to be celebrated.
YOU HAVE TO KEEP GOING TO KEEP GROWING.
i have been through so much in my life and i persevered because i put my faith in The Creators hands. i asked Him to change my heart and HE DID. i asked Him to save me and HE DID. i asked Him for his MERCY and HE TRANSFORMED ME. i asked Him to never leave ME and HE DID NOT. not only did HE live up to his WORD he sent me HIS BEAUTIFUL ANGELS who follow me everywhere i go. near or far, lost or found. i just have to be ONE WITH MY 💙HEART💜 and MY ANGELS 😇 WILL ALWAYS BE AROUND!!
may ❤️ LOVE and 💡 LIGHT find you where you vibe😎 and 🌹flow.
in this game of life we encounter many different souls. some are in our lives for a lifetime, a season, but always for a reason.
i encourage everyone to find that friendship or relationship that challenges you to be a better person. that one person you can rely on, to not sugar coat the truth. that one person that gives it to you straight up and raw with no chaser. this is what our everyday lives needs more of. we can find YES people everywhere. they’re the real dime a dozen. i want MY person to tell me what i already know, it’s just that hearing them say it makes me believe more in myself and my God given intuition, that we sometimes ignore. finding new admiration in MY person because if they care enough to know what MY soul and body truly needs versus what would make me temporarily happy or give me instant gratification. and risk giving in to ME for the greater good of MY MIND,BODY AND SOUL. if the latter describes someone in your present.
well then you have found said person.
we are attracted to different souls for different things. not all humans in our lives can give us all we need. so we tend to collect different humans in our lives for certain situations and issues and things. i am guessing you want examples.
so lets say you want to go to the club…you call apple butter cause she loves to dance and she is down for whateve’s. then maybe, you want to drive by your boyfriend’s house because he is not answering and you got in a fight earlier. so you call peanut butter cause she is about that life and she is your ride or die. but if shit ever hits the fan and you need advice that you know will be on the money, you call ME!!! jk. no seriously, CALL ME… i am a great listener… i am one of the few beings left on this earth that truly love bringing YOU back to EARTH. (it gives me great internal pleasure and one of my many skills and gifts The Creator blessed me with)
SOOOO GET IT…GOT IT….GOOOOOD!!!
so we must make sure that in our roster of humans, that we have that one who challenges US. that one who by witnessing who they are as a person inspires YOU to be BETTER. as humans we will always remember how other humans makes us feel about ourselves. no one wants to be around someone who makes us feel less than or someone that nags at us or makes fun of us at our own expense. or who points out our flaws in an attempt to make us feel insecure 😞.
WE NEED MORE FRIENDS WHO WILL HOLD US ACCOUNTABLE, solely because they truly want what is BEST FOR US!!
WE NEED MORE HUMANS THAT WILL GUIDE US TO BE BETTER VERSIONS OF OURSELVES EVERYDAY. SO WE CAN COLLECTIVELY PLACE MORE LOVE IN THIS WORLD THAN HURT.
we should all be fans of souls who love US for US. we should all be fans of giving that same love we receive from them with the purest of intentions.
and lastly, we should all be STANS of the ☝️ONES of ONES☝️ who challenge US like no other, love US like NO OTHER, and will be there for US like no other. and help us GROW LIKE NO OTHER. OH, and they would never ABANDON US. they will always be by our side through thick and thin, the beautiful and the disasters. healing and pain. for the sole purpose of the unconditional love they see in us and they possess in their hearts as well. because knowing one is to be ONE. and on this journey together they are helping us level up into the Spiritual Beings we are all meant to BE!!
i am appreciative of you. i am grateful for you. i am inspired by YOU!!
💡LIGHT and ❤️LOVE wherever you 😎vibe and 🌹flow.
Going through Anxiety or Depression or any other Psychological Condition doesn’t make you unloveable-it makes you HUMAN.Seth J Gillihan
WE ARE HUMAN.
most importantly we are ONE!!
we MUST be compassionate, patient and kind to every HUMAN we come in contact with. regardless of race, gender, economic status, demographic, sexual preference, social status. whatever bias society has created that we then fall victim to and use to divide us. we MUST be accepting of ALL HUMANS.
this is not a suggestion, this should be our main focus on the DAILY!! (but don’t take my advice, i just want to better your life… so once again. I COME IN ☮️ PEACE✌️)
all humans brought to this Earth are fighting an internal battle we sometimes couldn’t even fathom. some in public. most in private. but it is a battle that we choose to overcome, nonetheless, hopefully in this lifetime.
since we are in an era of such darkness along with all these advancements in technology it creates Mental Disorders, that are more prevalent than ever before.
i always say the BRAIN is a powerful muscle. if it isn’t conditioned properly and given the “nutrients” and “workout” that it needs to grow with us and for us. and instead is filled with negativity from social media, beliefs that are put on us by society and just garbage that are but on us by labels and false narratives. it becomes our worst enemy.
pharmaceuticals may work but that should only be used for a short term. it is only putting a band aid on what the root cause is. if you do not get to the root cause of your programmed negative thinking. ask yourself…when was the first time i felt this way?? and really dig deep and do the work required. you will never fully HEAL. you will be stuck in a cycle of up and downs your entire life. but then we are made to believe that you need more pharmaceuticals or you have to up your dose. your body is becoming immune. (yeah, immune to the BS)
society as a whole has failed many of us. and we need to take our power back. we need to heal ourselves which then in a whole heals others and it’s a chain of healing that’s literally generational. it’s breaking curses that go back thousands of years. (don’t believe me, read a BOOK… i dare YOU!)
if all humans were just a tad more aware of how they treated every human they came in contact with. (ummm, i’m pretty positive that we would have an active hand in healing the WORLD!! NO CAP!!)
the fact that humans base their mental health off of how they should be loved should show us just how much more LOVE we should give to EVERY HUMAN PERIOD!! (but, NOOOO we do the opposite, cause that makes all the sense)
i embrace everyone around me with a smile and love in my heart because that is what The Creator would do and expects the same of me since i am his child. (i will say, there are some weirdos out there, and those get a mean mug and the I AM NOT THE ONE FACE!!)
of course, living in todays world not everyone is here to be loved. some want to hunt us and hurt us. so always use judgment. the eyes are a great place to start. and always use your God given intuition. it will never lead you astray.
i just want every HUMAN to know that if you are going through any anxiety or depression. you are not AlONE. you deserve all that’s good in the WORLD. I LOVE YOU AND GOD LOVES YOU. you are not LOST. LOVE will find YOU. and that’s starts with LOVING YOURSELF FIRST.
I 🙏 PRAY YOU FEEL❤️🩹. I PRAY YOU DEAL🤝. I PRAY🤲 YOU HEAL.
“The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake. Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.”
Psalms 23:1-4 NIV
when i accepted the Lord as my one and only savior. my life changed. he gave me strength when i was weak. he gave me faith when i felt fear. he put unconditional love and replaced my broken heart. and he blessed me with INTERNAL peace that reminded me of his ETERNAL LOVE FOR ME.
i grew up in churches my entire life. i can always remember Sundays “we’re the lord’s day” and that’s just how it was. i knew nothing else. as i got older and my horizons were broadened to different doctrines. i always felt a pull towards the more spiritual sense of what THE HOLY SPIRIT engulfs. i was naturally always drawn to religion but knew that my calling wasn’t just the black and white of what we are told to believe in organized churches. my curiosity was always drawn to a belief that wasn’t taught in these denominations.
my quest to find my spirituality never left me. even in my darkest days i carried with me and with great conviction that i was GOD’s CHILD. i was lost, nonetheless. but what he put in my heart at a young age. would only engulf in me a flame that could never be put out.
the day i began to heal myself was a long time coming but it was his belief in me that made me persevere. the road i had ahead of me was not easy. boy did i pray and i read scripture everyday. what grew in me was a will power that got stronger the more i practiced what i preached.
i knew that i had to do this alone. this was the only way. i had a habit of being co-dependent. constantly seeking love in lovers and friends, hoping that their love could save ME. I NEEDED TO SAVE MYSELF!! i needed to stand on my own and fight for MY LIFE. because for way too long i was merely surviving, swinging at the air.
i started intense therapy and found a therapist who specialized in what was causing my self destructive behaviors. everyday i saw a therapist for over 3 months straight. an hour everyday. the tears i cried could fill buckets. it was the most therapeutic to be able to get it all out and not be judged or coddled. it changed my life. from those days on. i would use my pain as strength. so i could fight my demons head on and never look back.
the beginning was hard, i struggled but i stayed the course. i knew i deserved this life of freedom. i couldn’t let my child hood trauma hold me back any more than it was and had. i was only hurting myself and my eyes were open to now see that. YES, i was a victim but i did not have to live my life as one. everyday i was blessed to wake up and face my guilt and shame. was another day behind me and another day to look forward too. i was no longer a victim.
the more i cleared my mind by staying still. being able to be in silence with all my darkness, all my dirt, without wanting to mute the noise. the stronger i became.i made peace with it all and choose the LIFE i wanted to live.the more peaceful i felt internally. the focus had to be on me and my healing. the persistence in me grew and before i knew it, i was no longer swinging at the air. my demons were losing their power. one by one. suddenly, i became wiser.
if it was EASY, everyone would do it. that always stayed with me and still does. it’s a sentiment that ONLY THE STRONG SURVIVE. i never realized how strong i really was. i knew i had it in me but i needed to BELIEVE IT!!
the second my mind grasped this powerful concept of believing what i already knew was in me, i was LIMITLESS. i was UNSTOPPABLE. i was moving mountains the size of boulders out of my way.
that is when i realized. i didn’t need anyone to define me. the definition was in myself. i didn’t need anyone to validate me. the validation was in myself. i did not need to seek the answers to my questions and problems in anyone or anything. all the ANSWERS WERE ALWAYS WITHIN ME. my self worth and how i saw myself was erased. i was SPIRITUALLY REBORN.
i want this for everyone who is lost or fighting a storm they can’t whether. if you feel a struggle or you are constantly stuck in a cycle of energy that sucks you dry and leaves you feeling hopeless. i urge you to seek The Creators help. i urge you to talk with a therapist. i urge you to take the steps to better yourself and unlock these unhealthy destructive behaviors that have hindered your spirit, heart and body into thinking this is the way your life will always be. or thinking that they way you feel is way deserved.
NO!!! 👎we all deserve internal peace and a heart filled with unconditional love. we all have this choice to change our lives. to flip the script and edit the past chapters that need rewriting. acknowledge the pain and hurt. process it. realize you can’t change it. it already happened. it’s a serious of events that divinely brought you to exactly where you are right this second. the past can not be changed. but YOU CAN CHANGE YOUR FUTURE.
replaying scenarios of what the past did and didn’t do will only cause confusion and disable you physically and mentally from ever moving forward. release it all and never look back. YOU DESERVE IT. WE ALL DESERVE IT.
this is not to say that your life will be perfect from here on out. it just means you no longer have a victim mentality so when those demons try and show their ugly heads. you’re equipped with SURVIVOR skills in your arsenal to slay for days. from that day forward anything you face head on will be a small speed bump. they can stop you for a minute or two but your will never be lost. because you have the best GPS money can buy.
I BELIEVE IN YOU
and now it’s your turn to do the same.
with every fiber in my being and all the unconditional love that pours out of my heart.
YOU ARE NOT ALONE. GOD LOVES YOU AND I LOVE YOU ❤️💕 🤟
growing up in a predominantly white town in my teens. and being literally one of 4 who were Spanish. (and one was a cousin by marriage) you would think my EGO would be on overdrive.
like OVERCOMPENSATION BOULEVARD.
i never felt less than. never felt any lack or like i didn’t fit in. i am mutable which means i can adapt to my habitat rarely quickly. i was lucky my ego and pride rarely got in my way. fortunately for me, working on my ego wasn’t on my souls lesson list. cause the ego is a doozy to overcome. but like anything in life it can be done with some hard work and lots of VODKA and a mild sedative!!(just kidding)…(kinda)
being raised by a strong personality like my Mother who taught me that you never let anyone tell you who you are.
YOU SHOW THEM WHO YOU ARE!!
i’ve always had this “je ne sais quoi” that could charm the uncharmed. honestly, i believe my gift of gab and knowledge of the randomest facts helped. but the latter sounds better. and who doesn’t ❤️ LOVE the french language. (i wanna see the eiffel tower so bad)
humans tend to overcompensate when they feel lack. when we feel attacked, embarrassed, hurt, defensive. our ego takes over. instead of pausing and receiving what your hearing. making the choice not to fight fire with fire. instead call on The Creator and i promise you, your response will be of a place that puts that fire out. our ego tests us everyday. not being REACTIVE IS KEY to putting a monsoon of water on the fire of energy that is the ego. this is a skill that with work you can master. why it’s not an instantaneous action that happens. well, that’s an EGO thing.
to feel better and feed the ego you think you need to impress people or think you do in order to have to save face so people don’t think your soft or losing your appeal. as a defense mechanism it makes you feel, see, hear, say things that aren’t even there. it’s like it has a mind of its own. that’s cause it does. THE EGO IS PART OR US. sometimes i wish it would SHUT TF UP!! no one asked you EGO!!
SOMEONE NEEDS TO TELL EGO TO PIPE TF DOWN!!
but the EGO is around to teach us life lessons. and if we care enough to pay attention to how we feel when our EGO is triggered. we can heal past child hood trauma, family issues, inner child release and break generational curses. with any trauma that is cured and released your doing not only yourself but all of your relationships benefit immensely from this. so let’s start doing this work. we are ONE at the end of the day. all curses broken now benefit all generations in the future. let’s not repeat learned behavior. that then just carries on. WHEN WE HEAL WE FEEL AND DEAL WITH IT. at the end of that is TRANSFORMATION. IT WILL ONKY MAKE YOU A BETTER HUMAN.
I AM THE BOSS OF ME, EGO… (repeat that 3x NOW, your welcome) don’t ever let it make you feel something you know is wrong, hurtful, evil or even detrimental to your health and well being.
YOU ONLY HAVE TO IMPRESS YOURSELF!!
KICK LITERAL ROCKS,EGO!! your ego. your pride will be your downfall if you don’t have the skills to silence it. you have to have balance. find what triggers you, get to the issue of why it triggers you and get the ❤️🩹HEALING ❤️🩹
YOU WILL THANK ME LATER!!
what others think of you is none of your business. you can’t control that. soooo…who GIVES A MONKEY SHIT. they don’t pay your bills and why does their opinion even matter that much?? ones that talk the most shit live in houses of the cheapest (i’m insinuating that it breaks easily, in case you didn’t catch it) GLASS!! they talk SHIT cause they are unhappy ☹️!!
Happy 😃 PEOPLE don’t do that. they are too busy living their lives and and worrying about their own.
when you start working on yourself, you realize the only person you have to impress is yourself! YOU ARE YOUR WORST ENEMY ANYWAY, so that’s who needs the impressing!!
FOLLOW ME NOW!!
the minute you make the connection that your ego is what holds your trauma and triggers. the moment you make that connection that feeding your ego only starves your growth.
YOU WILL NEVER FEEL THE NEED TO NEVER USE YOUR EGO AS A DEFENSE MECHANISM!!
the moment we awaken from this hypnotized slumber that the mainstream world wants you under and realize we are literally playing a GAME. that is when you become a valid PLAYER in THE GAME OF LIFE!!
main stream media is designed to trigger emotion in us with the hopes of a reaction. manipulating our feelings by showing us their narrative and instilling in us fear, and anger. the kind of emotions that separate us by nature and ignite bias in our hearts where unconditional love belongs. (i mean there is no room for the bias, you think they care….NOPE..it’s all part of the GAME.)
they want you reactive, a ticking time bomb. waiting to explode, on an innocent soul, who asked you “how your day was going?” there is a reason they say not to watch the news when you are upset or angry. because by design we are human at the end of the day. we can be easily manipulated by emotions when we are in a state of depravation.
when i was sad i would watch comedy. and when i was angry i would go for a walk and listen to some TRAP MUSIC(nature plus music is my anecdote). notice i used past tenses in these last two sentences. that is because, i was pleasantly AWOKEN from my SLUMBER and it was all done ALONE (hey at least you have ME, i wish i had ME then, but then that would defeat the purpose of divinity). i was one of the CHOSEN ONES who were bestowed with a game of life invitation at a young age, well deserved… BELIEVE ME… these are EARNED. just took me some time to learn the rules and start playing)
i was taught at a young age, that if your BS meter goes off, it is most likely a lie. to urban dictionary it down for you. if it sounds too good to be true, it most likely is. lies change but the TRUTH STAYS THE SAME! fortunate for me i come from a lineage of intellectuals that also possessed the skill of common sense. and trust ME it is not that COMMON. i was always sus of anyone pushing a narrative that was one sided. my M.O was and always will be to get all vantage points. craving the full story in every half ass narrative that was being sold to me for cheap, kept my eyes wide open.
THE GAME OF LIFE can be easy to play. depends how you play it. you ultimately just need to know the rules and play better than anyone else. Winning isn’t the end game.
WINNING ISN’T EVEN THE POINT. IMAGINE THAT SHITE.
Stamina IS. STAYING IN THE GAME IS.
using your lessons you overcame along the way and the tools and wisdom nuggets you have in your arsenal are 🔑 PIECES to LEVELING UP.
TO WIN THE GAME, JUST REMAIN IN GAME
once again this awakening doesn’t come to most. not in this lifetime anyway. if it is meant for you, TRUST when i say, it will just click and everything you knew and once had strong convictions in. NO LONGER MATTER.
if you are BLESSED enough to be chosen for this awakening. and become a PLAYER. 🥳 CONGRATS🎉
oh and one more thing….
BE A GAME CHANGER, we all ready have enough PLAYERS!!
YOU’RE WELCOME 😇
People who love themselves, don’t hurt other people. The more we hate ourselves, the more we want others to suffer.Dan Pearce
let that sink in for a minute or an hour… however long it takes you to process profound nuggets of wisdom. i am patient by virtue, so take your time. let me know when it hits and you are tapped in.
ohhhh look at you, you’re a fast learner. GREAT FOR YOU!! and ME actually, cause i have zero tolerance for slow learners.
ANYWHO, back to the subject at hand.
let’s get started…
ONE RULE!! no exceptions to this rule so it might as well be a LAW at this point.
BOTTOM LINE: HURT PEOPLE HURT PEOPLE!!! that is a FACT, not FICTION. this is the TRUTH, not a LIE.
when you feel anger, pain, guilt, shame, fear, all those emotions that are energy filled. that, then can manifest into negative energy that then gets projected out into the world. (you must always process your hurt energy. take the time you need to internalize it and get THE F$$K OVER IT. basically, cry a river, build a bridge, and walk, run, sprint..the form is insignificant) the more pain. the greater the lesson. and when you forgive the teacher/lost soul, you will be blessed abundantly. blessings on blessings.
it gets easier the more hurt you endure. trust ME. i am literally a PRO at overcoming adversity. i come back 10x stronger with a GLOW and a SWAG they would kill for.
but that’s neither here nor there.
it is your job to handle your SHIT!! no one deserves your passive aggressive projections thrown at them like darts. and you throw like shit. you hurt the ones you love and care for the most. and even innocent bystanders, who did nothing to you… but BREATHE. WHY?? because we know that they are sadly not going anywhere. they by default have to be your emotional punching bag. and they aren’t even aware they signed up for it. sounds quite deceiving on your end, when i say it like that…. doesn’t IT!!
SO CHANGE, GOSH DAGNIT!!
SORRY…. i am very passionate about this….Woooosahhhhh!!!
it is not to say that when you learn to love yourself, your problems go away.
it is when you love yourself, you always lead with your heart. you would not even fathom hurting others because you are hurting. what kind of jailhouse logic is that. i mean it’s actually mean spirited. your hurt should be the reason to love. simply because you know what pain feels like and you would not want anyone you love OR that crosses your path to ever feel that!!
if you are not a mean spirited individual, what would be the purpose on intentionally hurting someone else that did nothing to you, but cross your path. or are they are too happy for your liking that day.
when you can find love in your hurt. that is PURE STRENGTH from The Creator.
at the end of the day, we are all on a spiritual path. a lil compassion would be SPLENDID. at the end of the day, we are all lost souls trying to find our way home. some of us just have better maps and never hit traffic.(but that is another rabbit hole we will venture down later, baby steps peeps)
SHALL WE continue….WE SHALL
they say when people you LOVE and care for push you away and try and keep you at arms length. that is when you should LOVE ON THEM THE MOST. that is when you do not give up on them..most likely than not, they just want to know that when they are ready and that you are there for them…regardless, and UNCONDITIONALLY (well especially if you didn’t do anything wrong, if you DID..be the bigger person and APOLOGIZE..it is more for you…trust ME)
i happen to stand by this statement. all of us weren’t made naturally as communicators. with all this technology, can you blame them. i get anxious just thinking about it….eeeeeeek!!!
my point is that we have to be patient with the ones that we love and matter the most. especially the LOYAL ONES. we must show compassion, kindness, and the greatest of all, LOVE!! and unconditional LOVE, not that love with conditions and rules and pros and cons type shit!
UNCONDITIONAL LOVE is just that UNCONDITIONAL….no boundaries, forgiveness no matter what, (yes i said that shit, no matter what…now don’t be a door mat..i would never condone that. there is levels to this ish)
LIKE ATTRACTS LIKE…. so when you exude love on a daily basis you will receive LOVE ON A DAILY BASIS. it becomes a natural pull of love and balance. it is a miraculous divine attraction to witness and be a part of. it is almost like you are part of this collective that gets to experience something others can not and never will be able to tap in to.
well…….i forgot one detail…..we CAN ALL TAP IN…..it isn’t that exclusive. i might have over exaggerated a teeny bit. got caught in the moment…MY BAD! dang!!!
soooooo if time is an illusion like THEY say, then you are right on TIME.
WORK ON THAT HEART OF YOURS. HEAL YOUR INNER CHILD. SHE/HE IS SCREAMING TO COME OUT. DON’T TAKE YOURSELF SO SERIOUSLY. LIVE LIFE, DON’T ever let LIFE LIVE YOU!!!
Prayer works and speak aloud. The Creator knows your heart already so ask him for help and he will answer you. you hold up your end of the bargain and HE will too. if your family is the issue, you must be the one to initiate the change. be the good you want and the goodness you want in return. they may not like the real you but they will respect you, nonetheless. before you know it, they will catch up to your campaign. once they see the changes and how your life and everything around you is changing for the greatest good. they will subscribe. TRUST….POSITIVITY IS CONTAGIOUS!!! and CONSISTENCY IS KEY🔑
IT ONLY TAKES ONE PERSON TO GENERATE CHANGE.
when you have certainty in your beliefs. what you hold dear in your core you breath out in words that make anyone who crosses your path feel better than when they left you. carrying yourself in a way, thats mesmerizing to watch. it seems like everything they do is so effortless. being around their energy makes you feel like HOME. being in their presence makes you feel protected and safe without any of those words uttered. they always have perfect words that make you feel at ease. you naturally gravitate to them without even a thought. just being in their SUN shine for a couple hours gives you positive vibes of rays that last for days.
THIS IS HOW YOU KNOW, YOU ARE BEING LOVED BY A HEART WITH UNCONDITIONAL LOVE…..
MAY WE ALL SEEK IT. MAY WE ALL FIND IT.
and most of all
MAY WE ALL BE IT!!
my Kabbalah teacher sent our entire class this audio hours after i posted this. The Creator always knows how to send me my signs. ❤️💡🌟🙏✌️
a series of "dear diary" posts, poems and synchronicities ramblings about my journey evolving into a heightened DIVINE spiritual being..
the feelings of elation and joy give me a sense of peace and oneness. i am whole. i am loved by many. i am fixing and repairing generational curses. i am overcoming obstacles. i am breaking the chains of shackles that once held me bound. i am balance. i am duality. i am a divine feminine. i am a divine masculine. i am ying. i am yang. what others would see as my weakness, is my SUPERPOWER. i am EMPATHETIC. what i may consider my strength, can also be my downfall. i am CONFIDENT.
to be one with your body and really listen to it. never second guess what your next step is. flow in a way that it is almost like a dance. when you have certainty and oneness with your vessel, communication is endless and nothing short of a miracle. being thankful and grateful that your body works for you without even asking it to. that is why it is most always referred to as a machine. our bodies do not need any pre-programming to function. we just have to take care of it. i don’t think that is asking too much considering all our body does for us. we just get to BE. we have the easy job.
how i LOVE TO thank my body on the daily
i go through all the limbs and thank each one for its role and its function. i talk aloud and say why i am grateful to every part of my body. each body part has a function and should be recognized. i repeat this same ritual in the no lights shower i take and as i clean each body part. whatever comes to mind i say, sometimes its crazy and funny. the point is that the intention of thankfulness and being grateful is being set and projected out.
yes, you read that right….i take showers with no lights on and one of the littlest candles you can find. stumbling across an article mentioning this practice is how The Creator sends me signs that assist in getting me a LEVEL UP.
now when i feel an ailment coming on. i identify it on my own without giving it power. the minute you give it power, you lost the round.
example: i have a headache and it comes out of nowhere. i would not give it a name so you do that by maybe drinking water because water is the shit and i am most likely dehydrated. still don’t give it a name. i go down the list of possiblities…
did i eat? what did i eat? am i hungry? do i need a break? do i need fresh air? should i go hug a tree? do i maybe just need to breathe? did i meditate yet? did i have my sufficient caffeine for the day? (if all these are checked off, that is when i take a Aleve and thank said aleve and The Creator for the headache and for taking the pain with it, and saying all this as you are swallowing it) if you assume that the following day you are going to feel bad because you did the day before, then you’re going to feel BAD!!
IT IS THE CHOICE YOU MAKE!!!
as you ask yourselves these questions, your body will naturally answer you. then you become powerful because your superhuman self just worked through the ailment without giving it a name, middle name, last name and/or address. because, when you do, you have given this said ailment a unwanted invitation to your house with turn to turn directions. the minute you mention the ailment then give it your gps location by saying..” I have a headache again and its going to ruin my day and i have so much to do and why does this always happen when im busy, like why can’t i get a headache on a day i have nothing to do, like who’s in charge of giving out headaches?? what did i do to deserve this headache, God must hate me??
PLOT TWIST: The Creator loves all his children and wants the best for US. (and the audacity to bring him up when you have a headache, you are not going to EXILE. Sheeeeesh)
no one has time for unwanted guests and btw a little birdie told me Mr. Headache is obnoxious and can’t read a room to save his life.
so the decision is ultimately yours. i can’t make you TAKE CONTROL of your life. i can only give your the information and pray you apply it to your own life. i am just the messenger so put the gun down. i always come in PEACE✌️☮️
so if i were YOU, which i am not. i am too busy being ME and that would be impossible anyway because YOU are YOU….and I AM ME. (so glad that we got that out of the way)
talk to your BODY. have a conversation with it right NOW. go ON!!! say you are SORRY for being so selfish and that it won’t happen again. TELL YOUR BODY HOW COMMITTED YOU ARE TO LISTENING AND BEING ONE AGAIN.
you can only gain from such a cohesive relationship with the body that you created. you have nothing to lose and the all the BALANCE TO GAIN!!!
ᵈᵉᵃʳ ᵈⁱᵃʳʸ, ⁱ ᵖᵉʳˢᵒⁿᵃˡˡʸ ᵏⁿᵒʷ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ᵉᵛᵉʳʸᵒⁿᵉ ʰᵃˢ ᵗʰᵉ ᵖᵒʷᵉʳ ᵗᵒ ʰᵉᵃˡ ᵗʰᵉᵐˢᵉˡᵛᵉˢ. ʸᵒᵘ ᶜᵃⁿ ˡⁱᵗᵉʳᵃˡˡʸ ʰᵉᵃˡ ʸᵒᵘʳˢᵉˡᶠ ᶠʳᵒᵐ ᵃⁿʸ ᵃⁱˡᵐᵉⁿᵗ, ᵈⁱˢᵉᵃˢᵉ, ᵐᵉⁿᵗᵃˡ ʰᵉᵃˡᵗʰ, ⁱˢˢᵘᵉ ᵒʳ ᵗᵘʳᵐᵒⁱˡ ʸᵒᵘ ᵐᵃʸ ᵇᵉ ᵈᵉᵃˡⁱⁿᵍ ʷⁱᵗʰ.
ʸᵒᵘ ˢᵗᵃʳᵗᵉᵈ ᵒᶠᶠ ᵗᵃᵏⁱⁿᵍ ᵒⁿᵉ ᵐᵉᵈⁱᶜᵃᵗⁱᵒⁿ. ⁿᵒʷ ʸᵒᵘ ᵃʳᵉ ᵗᵃᵏⁱⁿᵍ 5 ᶠᵒʳ ᵗʰᵉ ˢᵃᵐᵉ ᶜᵒⁿᵈⁱᵗⁱᵒⁿ ᵇᵉᶜᵃᵘˢᵉ ʸᵒᵘ ⁿᵒʷ ʰᵃᵛᵉ ˢⁱᵈᵉ ᵉᶠᶠᵉᶜᵗˢ ᶠʳᵒᵐ said ᵐᵉᵈⁱᶜᵃᵗⁱᵒⁿ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ʷᵃˢ ˢᵘᵖᵖᵒˢᵉd to ᶜᵘʳᵉ ʸᵒᵘ ⁱⁿ ᵗʰᵉ ᶠⁱʳˢᵗ ᵖˡᵃᶜᵉ…ᴺᴼ ᴮᵁᴱᴺᴼ!!
ᶠᵁᴺ ᶠᴬᶜᵀ: ᵀᴴᴱ ᴴᵁᴹᴬᴺ ᴮᴼᴰʸ ᴵᔆ ᔆᴼ ᴬᴹᴬᶻᴵᴺᴳ ᴬᴺᴰ ᴾᴼᵂᴱᴿᶠᵁᴸ. ᵂᴱ ᴴᴬⱽᴱ ᵀᴴᴱ ᴬᴮᴵᴸᴵᵀʸ ᵀᴼ ᴴᴱᴬᴸ ᴵᵀ ᴼᵁᴿᔆᴱᴸⱽᴱᔆ!!
ᵖᵘᵗᵗⁱⁿᵍ ⁱⁿ ᵗʰᵉ ʳᵉqᵘⁱʳᵉᵈ ʷᵒʳᵏ ᵗᵒ ᵃᶜʰⁱᵉᵛᵉ ᵗʰⁱˢ ᔆᵁᴾᴱᴿᴴᵁᴹᴬᴺ ᵖᵒʷᵉʳ ʷⁱˡˡ ᵇᵉ ᵗʰᵉ ʰᵃʳᵈᵉˢᵗ ᵖᵃʳᵗ. ⁱᵗ ʷᵒⁿᵗ ᵇᵉ ᵖˡᵉᵃˢᵉⁿᵗ, ᵗʰᵃᵗ ⁱ ᶜᵃⁿ ᵍᵘᵃʳᵃⁿᵗᵉᵉ. ᵇᵘᵗ ᵗʰᵉ ʳᵉʷᵃʳᵈˢ ᵃⁿᵈ ᵍᵃⁱⁿˢ ʸᵒᵘ ʷⁱˡˡ ˢᵉᵉ ᵃⁿᵈ ʳᵉᶜⁱᵉᵛᵉ ʷⁱˡˡ ᵇᵉ ⁱⁿ ᵃᵇᵘⁿᵈᵃⁿᶜᵉ.
ᶠᵃᶜⁱⁿᵍ ʸᵒᵘʳ ᵈᵉᵐᵒⁿˢ ʰᵉᵃᵈ ᵒⁿ ᵃⁿᵈ ˢᵗᵃʳᵉ ⁱᵗ ⁱⁿ ᵗʰᵉ ᶠᵃᶜᵉ. ʷʰᵃᵗᵉᵛᵉʳ ⁱˢˢᵘᵉˢ ʸᵒᵘ ᵃʳᵉ ᵖᵘˢʰⁱⁿᵍ ᵈᵒʷⁿ ⁱⁿᵗᵒ ʸᵒᵘʳ ᴳᵁᵀ ⁱˢ ᵉˣᵃᶜᵗˡʸ ʷʰᵃᵗ ʸᵒᵘ ˢʰᵒᵘˡᵈ ᵇʳⁱⁿᵍ ᵘᵖ ᵗᵒ ᵗʰᵉ ˢᵘʳᶠᵃᶜᵉ ᵃⁿᵈ ᶠᵃᶜᵉ ʰᵉᵃᵈ ᵒⁿ.
ⁱ ᵇᵉᵍᵃⁿ ᵗʰⁱˢ ʲᵒᵘʳⁿᵉʸ ᵒᵛᵉʳ ᵃ ʸᵉᵃʳ ᵃᵍᵒ. ⁱ ʰᵃᵈ ᵘᵖˢ ʷʰᵉⁿ ⁱ ᵃᵖᵖˡⁱᵉᵈ ᵐʸˢᵉˡᶠ. ᵃⁿᵈ ᵈᵒʷⁿˢ,ʷʰᵉⁿ ᵐʸ ⁿᵉᵉᵈ ᶠᵒʳ ᵖⁱᵗʸ ᵐᵃᵈᵉ ᵐᵉ ˢᵉˡᶠ ˢᵃᵇᵒᵗᵃᵍᵉ.
ᵗʰᵉⁿ ⁱ ᵍᵒᵗ ˢⁱᶜᵏ ᵃⁿᵈ ᵗⁱʳᵉᵈ ᵒᶠ ᶠᵉᵉˡⁱⁿᵍ ˢⁱᶜᵏ ᵃⁿᵈ ᵗⁱʳᵉᵈ.
ᵀᴴᴵᔆ ᴵᔆ ᵂᴴᴱᴺ ᴹʸ ᴶᴼᵁᴿᴺᴱʸ ᵀᴼᴼᴷ ᴬ ᵀᵁᴿᴺ ᴰᴼᵂᴺ ᔆᵁᴾᴱᴿᴴᵁᴹᴬᴺ ᴸᴬᴺᴱ!
ⁱ ˢᵃⁱᵈ ᵐʸ ᵖʳᵃʸᵉʳˢ ᵃⁿᵈ ᵐʸ ᵃᶠᶠⁱʳᵐᵃᵗⁱᵒⁿˢ ᶠⁱʳˢᵗ ᵗʰⁱⁿᵍ ⁱⁿ ᵗʰᵉ ᵐᵒʳⁿⁱⁿᵍ. ᵍᵒᵗ ᵇᵃᶜᵏ ᵒⁿ ᵐʸ ᵈⁱᵉᵗ, ᶜᵘᵗ ᵒᵘᵗ ᶠʳⁱᵉᵈ ᶠᵒᵒᵈ, ⁿᵒ ˢᵒᵈᵃ. ᵐᵉᵈⁱᵗᵃᵗᵉᵈ ᵗʷⁱᶜᵉ ᵃ ᵈᵃʸ. ᵉˣᵉʳᶜⁱˢᵉᵈ ᵃⁿᵈ ᵗᵒᵒᵏ ᵐʸ ʷᵃˡᵏˢ ᵈᵃⁱˡʸ.
ᵀᴴᴱ ᴿᴱᴬᴸ ᴹⱽᴾ ⁱᔆ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ⁱ ʳᵉᵃᵈ ᵘᵖ ᵒⁿ ᵃⁿʸ ᵇᵒᵒᵏˢ ʰᵃᵛⁱⁿᵍ ᵗᵒ ᵈᵒ ʷⁱᵗʰ ʰᵉᵃˡⁱⁿᵍ ʸᵒᵘʳ ᵇᵒᵈʸ. ᵗʰᵉ ᵏⁿᵒʷˡᵉᵈᵍᵉ ⁱ ʰᵃᵛᵉ ᵍᵃⁱⁿᵉᵈ ⁱⁿ ᵗʰⁱˢ ˡᵃˢᵗ ʸᵉᵃʳ ʰᵃˢ ᵇʳᵒᵘᵍʰᵗ ᵐᵉ ʷʰᵉʳᵉ ⁱ ᵃᵐ ᵗᵒᵈᵃʸ.
ᵐᵒʳᵃˡ ᵒᶠ ᵗʰⁱˢ ˢᵗᵒʳʸ: ᴰᴼ ᵀᴴᴱ ᵂᴼᴿᴷ ᴼᴺ ʸᴼᵁᴿ ᴹᴵᴺᴰ ᴮᴼᴰʸ ᴬᴺᴰ ᔆᴼᵁᴸ! ʸᴼᵁ ᴰᴱᔆᴱᴿⱽᴱ ᴵᵀ ᴬᴺᴰ ᴵᵀ ᶜᴬᴺ ᴼᴺᴸʸ ᴵᴹᴾᴿᴼⱽᴱ ʸᴼᵁᴿ ᴸᴵᶠᴱ. ᔆᴼ ᴵᵀᔆ ᴬ ᵂᴵᴺ -ᵂᴵᴺ.
ᴵᴹ ᔆᴼ ᴮᴸᴱᔆᔆᴱᴰ ᴬᴺᴰ ᴳᴿᴬᵀᴱᶠᵁᴸ ᶠᵒʳ ᵉᵛᵉʳʸ ᵇᵒᵒᵏ,ᵃʳᵗⁱᶜˡᵉ,ᵐᵉᵈⁱᶜᵃˡ ʲᵒᵘʳⁿᵃˡ ᵒʳ ᵖᵃᵍᵉ/ᵇˡᵒᵍ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ʷᵃˢ ᵖᵘᵗ ⁱⁿ ᵐʸ ᵖᵃᵗʰ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ʰᵉˡᵖᵉᵈ ᵐᵉ ʷⁱᵗʰ ᵐʸ ʲᵒᵘʳⁿᵉʸ.
we all have stored in our memories bank a vast amount of valuable story/stories that made us who we think we are. who we were conditioned to be. how we handle people, places and things. and how we view the world because of these stories.
life happens. things happen. people hurt us. and people change us but it’s all for a greater purpose.
THIS I KNOW!!
if we can change our thinking to see the beauty in the pain. to see the silver lining in every painful or expensive lesson. not just see the beauty in the good, cause what would be the lesson in that.
we won’t have to repeat the same scenario over and over. with different teachers.
think of your journey in this game we call life as literal school and everyONE you meet is a teacher. in the sense that they come in your life for a purpose. they show you what you dislike most about yourself. and trigger you like no other.
what the purpose is, varies obviously, but The Creator knows what you need to do in order to get to the next level up in your journey.
i did the math for you. identify the negative trait, find the root cause, do the work on it, bless the lesson. forgive and then bless your teacher. forgive and bless yourself. then throw it away and the best reward
so what are we trying to achieve??
what is the END GAME??
INNER✌️☮️PEACE, UNCONDITIONAL LOVE❤️ for one another and i don’t know… GREATNESS!!!
a collective of souls who regardless of demographic can come together and simply BE!!!
if everyone looked inside of themselves and really put the work in of changing what is holding you back.
WE WOULD BE LIMITLESS!!
being able to acknowledge your negative traits, stare it in the face. say NOOOO SIR…i am not that OR this anymore. I AM this and I AM that and it starts today!!
the second you change how you think and match it with the purest of intent. i guarantee you.
IT’S A “THE GAME OF LIFE CHANGER”
don’t believe me.
I AM LIVING THE PROOF OF IT!!!
most think they know the real me
tRy and figure me out,
ᴵ ᴬᴹ MULTIPLE LAYERS
ᴵ ᴬᴹ MUTABLE
ᴵ ᴬᴹ ONE OF ONE
ᴵ ᴬᴹ F*CKING DOPE!
please check your vision, your losing your senses
that’s the only way, cause obviously 🙄
the 5th dimension is the only way your ever getting a piece of ME
3D is just an illusion
its called The Game of Life
you silly 🙃 rabbit
ᴵ ᴬᴹ CHOSEN
ᴵ ᴬᴹ NEVER LOSING
my vibe is on another wavelength
so my energy can’t come in your size
it wont ever mesh with your kinds
you can have what is meant for YOURS
but one last reminder NEVER COME FOR MINE
MY CONFIDENCE CAN BE MISTAKEN FOR ARROGANCE
that is your ISSUE
NEVER 👎 MINE
my react button is disabled
you won’t find a reaction from me in this LIFETIME
ᴵ ᴬᴹ the definition of INNER ✌️ PEACE
ᴵ ᴬᴹ A HUMAN ᴵᴺ LIGHT FORM
ᴵ ᴬᴹ ᴬ SPIRITUAL BEAST
excuse my absence, come to find out this God given vessel is only a lease
my soul has been awakened to my mission and true purpose by The Divine
they whispered in my ear
it’s YOUR TIME…
so i will NEVER DENY
THE BEST IS YET TO COME….
STAY TUNED TO MY 🌊 WAVE
Might as well get in line
My Light has been activated from within
and it’s my DIVINE TIME to ✨SHINE✨
LOVE was never an issue when it pertained to loving THEE…
on the contrary, the lack from others
was painfully bleak
ALWAYS, giving too much too soon
always seeing the great in humans regardless of the catastrophe
i can not be the only one who loves like this, is the love in my heart slowly robbing ME?
NAHH,..i would rather LOVE than NOT LOVE AT ALL, that engulfed my philosophy
friends, lovers, strangers,children, All humans
are treated with the same love and i let it lead
but, not everyone is accepting of MY love and that made it hard to breath
learning forgiveness is a part of love too
it heals the pain and the grief
forgiving them, then forgive yourself
then wash it away in my sea
SO, love is THE most Powerful Healing Energies and i’ve got TONS you see…..
remembering a promise i made to myself
to never forget three words and i worship faithfully
to always lead with…..
❤️I LOVE ❤️ ME…..