at a very young age i was under the impression that the Moon 🌙 was my protector. the fondest memory i have is me in the backseat in a car seat staring out into the dark sky and noticing the Moon. i felt seen by it. the light illuminating from it made me feel everything beautiful. from then on the Moon was a person to me. he became my friend. my refuge from the chaos. he would follow me wherever i went so i just assumed he was making sure i got home safe. for some reason, i believed he was only following me, he was just for ME. it was comforting then and still is to me now. my relationship with the Moon hasn’t changed. he is one of my oldest friends. i notice him trying to get my attention now, when i am home and forget to say Hi. its almost a nudge of like “hey, look at me, i am shining for you”. i even asked for a telescope for Christmas a couple years back so i could connect more with him. my curiosity was ignited. i’ve been low key obsessed with everything above the horizon ever since.
looking up at the sky always gave me hope. it made me realize that our journey isn’t just the material but there was another force at play. someone or something also had a say. deep down inside, no matter how much i worried. i always knew that i would be ok. a peaceful calmness that gave me the ability to always stay optimistic. the feeling of being watched but for the purpose of safety. the feeling of being protected but not by just one entity or deity or planet.
fear or scared is not a adjective you would use to describe my character.
being myself unapologetically (in a way that is constructive, of course?!) was my superpower and i wasn’t even aware of it.
the more you speak your truth. i mean in the sense that what you are saying, you truly believe. when your thoughts match what’s in your heart. that is how you achieve, to live in the present and on your way to a place of self consciousness.
this is no easy feat. as humans we are designed to please. to want instant gratification. telling others what we think they want us to say. what we think they want to hear. textbook PLEASERS. constantly worrying what others are thinking.
ME…. i could give 2 shits less. they do not pay my bills or can even walk a block in my Yeezy’s…
we were created to be individuals. by definition, to be different. but yet everyone wants to dress the same, think the same, wear their hair the same, talk the same. then with those emotions comes jealousy and hate and envy. the familiar 3 of 7 deadly sins. all because your God given vessel isn’t up to your standards. so instead of you working on it and yourself so you can LOVE YOURSELF… (and believe me when you truly LOVE yourself your light shines so bright. you emulate all thats beautiful in the world. you beam a confidence that is otherworldly). you try and rewrite what is meant for you by not having self acceptance and self love.
most cant help but portray these negative emotions, because they let the material world get in the way of their true purpose. instead of living out their souls mission they are worried about the next person and what they are doing. instead of leveling up and making a change in this life, in this world. they engage in negativity, and hate talk and gossip. lowering their vibration with every toxic word they breathe. inviting in disease, fatigue, depression, hurt, addictions(and not just illegal drugs people.. if you cannot go a day without it, your ADDICTED) pain, and anger.
sounds like self sabotage to me. and i am not a STAN.
everyday you are BLESSED to wake up. you should feel and be extremely GRATEFUL. grateful that you can right your wrongs. blessed because we all have friends or loved ones who wished they did. grateful because we have a brand new 24 to try again. the beauty in that makes me feel blessed enough. but for some, they feel entitled to it.
nothing in this world is guaranteed. we are on borrowed time here on Earth. the thought that it takes seconds to change the course of your life FOREVER!! mere seconds. is a thought more should be concerned about.
since i don’t know how much time i have. not worried about it either. im going to LOVE MY LIFE, the good, the bad, the beautiful, the ugly. im grateful to have experienced it all because i grew as an individual. i am now on a journey thats so beautiful and divine. i cry at the mere thought of how far i have come and all that i have persevered. and the BEST IS YET TO COME!!
thats the beauty in putting your life in someone’s else’s hands. your worry is gone. your fear of the unknown is gone.
now with all this being said. there always has to be a BAD GUY… its the ying to the YANG. it is the balance that is needed in this game called LIFE. who you choose to be is up to you. or maybe you were chosen to be the BAD GUY “lesson” in several humans journeys. who am i to ruin that. but just know if you ever get tired of that script. you are the only one who can edit the script. with help from The Creator of course. but know you always have options.
my intuition is in the driver seat, my mind body and soul are the guides and my moral gps and The Almighty Creator always has the wheel.
so i forgot to mention the dedication it takes. i put in the work everyday it was consistent and i was persistent. what i put in. i got out of the work. the more i disciplined myself the more abundance and favor i received. it does not come cheap. you cant just read a book or take a Youtube tutorial and or try to cut, copy and paste someone’s else’s life and make it yours. you have to put your own work in. you have to be more committed than you have ever been. effort is an understatement. this takes WILL POWER. you have to truly be willing to change your ways. go deep in your soul and fix all the ugly you accumulated from all the hurt, pain, guilt and shame you carried around. and made innocent humans pay for. you have to get it all out and still love yourself regardless of the flaws. NO ONE IS PERFECT, but we can LOVE OURSELVES LIKE WE ARE WHOLE!!!
NO PAIN. NO GAIN
but this leveling up isn’t for the weak of stomachs or the one week quitters. if it was easy everyone would do it.
its for the ones who have HEART. not the cut corners type. its for the FIGHT for your LIFE types. not the weak minded. its for the ones who stand in the face of adversity and speak their truth and stand by it. not the gossipers who hate cause they can’t stand alone.
NEVER GIVE UP ON YOURSELF…. cause you are WORTH IT!!
i will ALWAYS BE A WORK IN PROGRESS but you will never see me not progressing in my WORK!!!